My first wrong turn

At first, I ignored the question.

Maybe it would pass.

Maybe I was tired.

Maybe I needed a holiday.

It didn’t pass.

If anything, it became louder.

Eventually, the high achiever in me took over:

“Okay. There is clearly a problem. Let’s figure this out.”

I started reading.

Listening to podcasts.

Going to events.

Searching.

And eventually, I arrived at what seemed like the most logical conclusion:

Maybe the problem was my job.

So, for the first time in my life, I made what felt like an enormous investment in myself.

£10,000.

Three months with a highly recommended coach.

And eventually, the logical answer emerged:

Change your job.

Move to another bank.

Use almost two decades of experience.

Earn more money.

Enjoy a fresh environment.

A new challenge.

It made complete sense.

There was only one problem.

Something inside me kept saying:

“Surely changing the scenery isn’t the answer?”

I didn’t want another version of the life I already had.

I wanted to understand why I was asking “Is This It?” in the first place.

So I did something different.

I figured out how to make a genuine career change.

No banking.

No relying on almost two decades of industry experience.

A completely different industry.

Eventually, I received three job offers — including one with approximately a 25% salary increase.

I had proved to myself that I could completely reinvent my career without starting again from the bottom.

I accepted one of the offers.

And then...

Before I even started...

I said no.

Because somewhere during that journey, another thought had started growing:

If I could figure out how to do this myself, perhaps I could help other people do it too.

So I walked away from the offer.

And started my own business.

I had evolved. My business hadn’t evolved with me.

That took me time to understand.

Nothing was wrong with my career coaching business.

It was successful.

Profitable.

Established.

I still loved the people I worked with.

But somewhere deep inside, I could feel that I had grown.

And my work hadn’t completely grown with me.

It began to feel smaller than the impact I wanted to create.

Smaller than the depth of work I felt called towards.

There was only one rather significant problem:

I had absolutely no idea what that “something bigger” was.

Then, through an incredible series of synchronicities, an unexpected opportunity appeared.

I was approached about selling my career coaching methodology and programme to a British university for their Executive Education programme.

I hadn’t been looking for it.

It simply unfolded.

And suddenly...

One chapter was naturally coming to a close.

Which left me facing another question:

“Okay... so what now?”

I found that uncertainty incredibly difficult to tolerate.

So once again, I tried to create certainty.

Fast.

I hired a marketing coach.

Within weeks, we had a perfectly logical answer:

Help entrepreneurs and founders build successful online businesses.

After all, I had done it myself.

I understood marketing.

Sales.

Teams.

Strategy.

Creating freedom.

It made perfect sense.

I announced my new direction.

Three wonderful founders came into my world.

The work was going well.

They were getting results.

Everything seemed to confirm I had finally found the right direction.

And then...

Three months later...

For the third freaking time:

“Is This It?”

That one hit me hard.

The darkest part of the journey

If I wasn’t a career coach...

And this new direction wasn’t right either...

Then who was I?

What was I actually here to do?

Where was I supposed to go next?

Nothing on the outside was dramatically collapsing.

But inside, I felt completely lost.

And because I didn’t know what else to do...

I slowly started looking for relief.

More travel.

More Netflix.

A little more wine.

Comfort food.

Scrolling.

Shopping.

Anything that gave me a temporary break from not knowing.

None of those things were inherently the problem.

The problem was why I was using them.

They had quietly become a way of postponing a conversation I desperately needed to have with myself.

And the more I tried to escape the question...

The further away I felt from myself.

I gained weight.

My energy changed.

I became more irritable.

Less patient.

Less excited.

And eventually, I realised something that now sits at the heart of my work:

Anything that stops you sitting with the question also stops you hearing the answer.

I didn’t need more certainty.

I needed a different relationship with uncertainty.

I simply didn’t know that yet.

Then, last December, something changed.

After coming home from yet another incredible trip, I looked at my husband and said:

“I’m tired.”

Not tired of work.

Not even tired of travelling.

I was tired of running.

Running from uncertainty.

Running from not knowing.

Running from that uncomfortable space between who I had been...

And who I was becoming.

So as the New Year approached, I made a very different kind of resolution.

No new business target.

No financial goal.

No productivity challenge.

Just one decision:

I was going to stop trying to escape uncertainty.

Instead of fixing it...

Stay with it.

Instead of forcing an answer...

Listen.

Instead of desperately trying to make “Is This It?” disappear...

Let the question stay.

And I leaned much more deeply into practices I had already known and used for years.

Practices that helped me get out of my head.

Change my state.

Quiet the noise.

And create enough inner space to hear myself again.

And then...

Something happened I could never have planned.

The work found me.

A former career coaching client I hadn’t spoken to in years sent me a message.

He had created the career change.

Built the business.

Achieved so much of what he once wanted.

And now he was asking:

“Is This It?”

He didn’t need another business strategy.

He felt he needed something deeper.

Part of me immediately thought:

“Who am I to help him? I’m still figuring this out myself.”

But another part quietly whispered:

“Maybe you already know more than you think.”

So I said yes.

We started working together.

And then, organically, one thing led to another.

Conversations.

Introductions.

Recommendations.

Friends and peers hearing about the work.

Over the following months, more people found their way to me.

Different careers.

Different businesses.

Different lives.

Yet every conversation somehow arrived at the same place.

“Is This It?”

And suddenly I understood:

They weren’t coming to me because I had changed careers.

They weren’t coming because I had built a successful business.

They were coming because:

I had already walked the road they were standing on.

The road between one chapter ending...

And another not yet fully revealed.

For the first time, the pieces of my own life began connecting.

Corporate.

Career coaching.

Leadership.

State mastery.

Breathwork.

Personal transformation.

The wrong turns.

Even the darkest months.

None of it had been wasted.

And I realised:

I didn’t go looking for this work.

This work quietly found me.

For the first time in a very long time, something inside me simply knew:

“This Is It.”

The SPARK Method™

As I continued working with these incredible people, something else became clear.

I wasn’t creating everything from scratch.

Many of the pieces had been with me for years.

Some came from career coaching.

Some from leadership programmes.

Some from State Mastery.

Some from breathwork.

Some from years of studying personal transformation.

Some from my own seven-year journey.

And some new pieces emerged through this work.

It was almost as though I had spent years collecting individual pieces of a puzzle without realising they belonged to the same picture.

Now...

They finally fitted together.

And gradually, a clear, practical, step-by-step roadmap emerged:

The SPARK Method™.

A way to guide ambitious corporate leaders and entrepreneurs through The Threshold...

And intentionally create their next chapter.

Not by immediately changing their career.

Business.

Relationship.

Or entire life.

But by moving through this extraordinary stage in the right order.

One clear step at a time.

Towards a chapter that feels:

Meaningful.

Deeply fulfilling.

Energising.

A chapter where success doesn't just look good from the outside.

It feels good to live.

And as you begin creating it...

The spark that quietly faded begins to return.

The enthusiasm.

The energy.

The possibility.

That feeling of genuinely looking forward to what's next.

That's the journey from:

“Is This It?”

to

“This Is It.”

And this is my next chapter.

Once I saw the roadmap clearly...

And saw what was happening with the people I was supporting privately...

I knew I wanted to make this journey available to more than the handful of people I could work with one-to-one.

Because I kept thinking about the version of me standing on that stage seven years ago.

Successful on paper.

Completely confused inside.

With absolutely no idea what was happening...

Or what to do next.

What took me seven years to understand doesn't need to take someone else seven years.

And that has become the mission behind my work today.

To help ambitious corporate leaders and entrepreneurs over 40 move beyond “Is This It?”

Reignite their spark.

And intentionally create their next meaningful, deeply fulfilling and energising chapter.

If that's where you are right now...

Perhaps nothing has gone wrong.

Perhaps you've simply arrived at The Threshold.

And I'd love to show you the way through.

A Little More About Me 

Because there is obviously more to me than work...

📍 Home
I've lived in London for more than 20 years and still love discovering new corners of the UK and places close to home.

🤍 Love
I'm happily married to my husband, and we've been together for more than a decade.

🐈 Animals
I'm a huge animal lover and proud pet parent to a beautiful white cat.

💃  Dancing
My husband and I have been learning Ballroom and Latin dancing together for almost two years—and absolutely love it.

🎾 Tennis
I love playing tennis. Competitive enough to care about the score... but still mostly there for the joy of playing.

🥾 Nature
Long walks, hiking and being surrounded by nature are some of my favourite ways to spend a day.

🍳 An Unexpected Love Of Cooking
For most of my life, I genuinely didn't enjoy cooking.

Then, somehow, over the last few years, something changed.

I rediscovered it completely, became surprisingly good at it, and now genuinely love creating beautiful food at home.

✨ New Experiences
I'm endlessly curious.

New places.

New experiences.

Learning something I've never done before.

Anything that makes life feel a little bigger, fresher and more alive.

Because perhaps that's the simplest way to explain what I believe today:

We don't stop achieving.

We simply learn that there is so much more to life than achievement.

And I intend to enjoy all of it. 🤍